It’s been forever since I’ve blogged…life has just been crazy and busy and crazy. I send final images to my clients via a gallery and that’s as far as I get these days. In the craziness of life lately, I’ve also let go of a lot things so that I’m on my computer less, spending more time with my family–and during the day it’s with the 3 tiny humans that call me Momma. It is the greatest honor that God has entrusted me with on this earth–I get to raise these little munchkins and be their mother. They make me laugh every day. My heart swells with joy when Rogan reads a new word, or Athan goes to find Mae’s favorite toy to make her happy and stop crying…or when Maevyn smacks me in the nose with her head and as I wince she turns to say “Wha happen Momma?” and then takes my face between her tiny hands and says “Sowwy Momma” when I tell her she hurt my nose with her head. Every day there is something new or something exciting–even in the routine things that seem to repeat themselves over and over in life with 3 small children. I can’t imagine my life without them in it. My heart aches for those who have not had the chance to be a mom yet, or who have lost a child, and even those who say they don’t want to be a mom. Don’t get me wrong…it’s not easy, but it is so worth it. At a recent baby shower for a friend of mine, there was a family from NY sitting at a table near ours and as they were leaving and congratulating my friend on her soon-to-enter-the-world little boy, the older dad said “The days are long, but the years are short.” This is so true! There are some days when I just go to the bathroom and lock the door so that I can pee and have 2 minutes without someone pulling on my clothes or asking for snacks or whining about the wrinkle in their socks. And at the same time I wonder how my little boy just turned FIVE–he was only born a few months ago, right?!
Things that, as a new mom, I used to think were important–like always keeping up with the laundry, keeping the house clean so people could drop by any time(maybe it’s a small-town thing, but I really would love it if people actually did that here!), or keeping my dry erase calendar on the fridge up to date so we’d be nice and organized….they have been replaced by building lego vehicles and putting together puzzles and sand and books and baking with the kids and blanket forts. Yes, I love a clean house, and yes, I love to know what’s on my calendar–but I just don’t stress out about those things not getting done in a timely manner any more when I know that these little people will almost always put a kink in that timeline. And it’s okay. These little people love me with all they’ve got and I can’t even begin to put into words how much I love them back! The other day when Athan was upset about something, he told me, “It’s a broken day in a broken world, Mom.” So true–but what a blessing it is in this broken world to have these precious gifts from God! I love you sweet midgets, and I always will!!